Yes it is late at night and my car gets a flat tire. So I pull to the side of the freeway and then get out of the car. Then to my surprise a serial killer is waiting to get me. At every car box on the freeway late at night there is a serial killer, waiting. Really, I think I might very well be able to change a flat tire myself. This is the worst scenario of not having a cell phone in case of an emergency. Yet, did you know that one can be traced via their cell phone by the same serial killer? I am not a phone person. I know everyone has one and I use to have one too. Yet, I decided to give it up because of some scientific study that claimed that the vibes has an effect on the bee population in a negative way, So I gave it up. Also, I don’t like talking on the phone . I am not a talker to begin with. I don’t know much about small talk either. I tend to lecture and then I like to listen. I am very receptive to my environment. I find that Facebook is perfect for expressing myself to the world and to my friends. I am there everyday so anyone can reach me there. I have had many people want my number and I always felt guilty. Will I hurt their feelings? They will think I am weird? I like people. Yet, I don’t like talking on the phone. I think that this Borg generation is a bit crazy. I hate taking to people while they are looking at their cell phone too. So I usually get up and stay clear. I am going back to the simple. I like my privacy.. I love it…. I set my personal space and If you want to be my friend you will accept this about me. I am halfwild and half- domesticated.
I finished my Flipside Punk Rock memoir about two years ago. There are so many books coming out about the punk rock days of the late 70’s and 1980’s. I just feel a bit jaded at this point. All the revival and nasatgial… I got over about three years ago as well. I am still reading books about the subject of writing and publishing. I found a pretty good book called Booklife by Jeff Vandermeer. An excellent review of this book is included on the site Where Musicians and Writers Collide: Publicity. So far I find the book interesting. Jeff writes about setting goals and tells writers just to do more writing over all. He writes about the difference between the public life and the private life of a writer. As we know the public life is a very social one and at times very political. The private life is about the time writers need alone to have the time to actually be creative, and write. For me it is also about how I wish to present my book. I am looking for a good editing program. It is putting the two elements of a writers time together that makes for a successful writer. So I may still put away this punk book and write another one or two. One about my days growing up in the San Fernando Valley of California, and another being a murder mystery novel about how a woman tracks down the girls who bullied her in her school days and hides them in her bomb shelter. The point being Jeff’s book has inspired me and that it always helpful.
We all have our personal space as invisible auras around us. This can be as we see it. It can be experienced or thought of as consciousness, mental, emotional, sexual or whatever.
Today I had something very uncomfortable happen to me where I felt my personal space being violated. I know that different cultures have different personal spaces. I know that my personal space is there but today I experienced a disruption of it. I was checking out at a store. I noticed a young man come from behind me as my items were being scanned. He had one item. Normally, I would let a rushed person with one item pass ahead. Yet, my items were already being scanned. This young man was standing very close. Then I noticed I became confused in the sense that I could not remember my pin number for my debt card. I could not find my driver’s license to identify myself to the cashier. Then I looked over at this young man and he was very close. Before I signed my name on the computer prompt.
I told the guy to back off and that he was invading my personal space. He laughed at me. I was very serious.
Then he asked me how much. I reached out my arm as far as I could and said a little more than this. I then realized to myself , that this is in fact my own personal space. At first I did not comprehend what was happening, but after a quick association and sensitivity I then realized what was distorting my normal functions as a person within my own personal space. I went into the store with a very open personal space. I will not let that happen again. I want to let people know that to earn entrance into my personal space takes time. Maybe burning a little white sage might be the right way of ritualistically awakening the strength of ones personal space within an environment that is based on a variable of unknown persons. Maybe eyeballing the environment is what must be done.
Forgive me for any personal spaces I have violated unawares…
In all regards we need to respect another person’s personal space; realizing that when we find others in this life that bond with us, or let down their personal space for us in a complementary way, that it is a blessing. I do not like it any other way.
When I dress up as a Jester, Holy Fool, or Evil Cenobite. I represent something cosmic in ether and brilliance of humor, contemplation or buffoonery!
I am the evil side of shadowy seduction as the succubus. I love it!
I become youthfully sparkled and my reflection is so.
I say to myself,
“Is that me in the mirror?”
For a short time I wandered into the world of Never-Neverland and my comrade is Peter Pan or Puck from a Midsummer Night’s Dream.
I may walk into the underworld where Pluto escorts me.
I am eternally youthfully and playful,
I love this.
If I could do this as a living and join the circus or a group of wandering bards,
Yes, I would…
I take off my costume of creativity of cosmic proportions,
sliding into my bed in the wee morning,
I awake to the smell of coffee and…
This is the first issue I worked on. This is called the “fear” issue. The cover was put together by Al Flipside and myself and also initiated my place as a staph writer for the fanzine.
This is something special that came together and here is a little show of it… enjoy.
Learning while doing is the process of achieving some strange goal. That is what I am going to start covering in my BLOG… and other stuff too… I am going back to the basics…quality over quantity…
OK here I go to yak, yak, yak.. and I like to… I just started this and here I go.. When I started working on Flipside Fanzine in the late 1970s the term “Be More Than A Witness” was a very serious motivation behind the scene of a fanzine. Yes there was the ideas of anarchy but what I feel really highlights this period of punk, what really was happening.., was something very productive not destructive. There of course were the fanzines, but most importantly there were the record labels, and the fans who were all supporting the bands. We all had a close symbolic relationship. Even to this day some 30 years later there is a strange kind of knowing bond between us. If anything has survived besides the music from that early punk period it is this. Getting involved in doing something. Now you can have your podcast, A Punk Rock Museum, play your music at the local pub, or maybe sell your art at the local community store. This is all going on now and lots of it. I know about DIY.
“do it yourself”