Ever since I remember, I have had an altered sense of reality. Offbeat and introverted in general has given me the time to understand what the cosmos is all about…esoterically.
Yes, I would say I have a cosmic consciousness. I came to this realization last night while gazing into the darkness. The real reach came years ago when I started reading books by Helena Petrovna Blavatsky, Annie Besant and Rudolf Steiner. (Theosophy) The real big change happened when I began to read The Rosicrucian Cosmo Conception by Max Heindal.
At twenty-two I lived a wild life. The Cosmo Conception gave me an esoteric perspective that I was seeking. The book revealed answers to the questions I was asking. The next twenty years I grew to know the Rosicrucian Fellowship, based in Oceanside California, very well.
I became a probationer and entered the beautiful healing temple on the campus located there. It was better than Disneyland and Halloween all rolled up into one. The study of the lesser and greater mysteries is fascinating.
The evolution of the cosmos is very heavy stuff…but I learned it. It is more than just mental knowledge because it is a heartfelt life experience of persistent spiritual work, one that I am still learning.
At times I did become dogmatic, yet now the beauty is still revealed slowly to me and it is subtly affirming many mysteries. This is a book well worth reading. The original copyright is 1909. When reading the book be contextually mindful of the time frame of when this book was written.
The historical time is very important. The wonder is not. I do not agree on all the concepts taught in this book currently, but I do see that the best thing mankind should do is combine art, science and religion.
I see it collectively as a new and life affirming part of human evolution, including this planet, all living creatures, (great and small), and the cosmos.