5/30/23
I beat it. No more cancer in me… i am free again.
4/ 27 23
Update. I have melanoma and now on for surgery and possible other options to kill the cancer.
As far as we can discern, the sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a light in the darkness of mere being.
~ Carl Jung
I have studied at universities the value of sacred texts and myths older than the patriarchs. I have been a probationer with the Rosicrucian Fellowship longer than forty years and learned of the creation of the cosmos, astrology, and the journey of our souls and of evolution and rebirth.
I have visited the underworld where darkness I did escape back into the light. I know the medicine wheel where Buffalo whispers in my ear of the wonders of bravery.
I have dreamed of the Thyrsus and watched bees. Knowing both have blessed my heart as they collect nectar of the soul and flowers. Teaching me about nature.
I created two beings in my womb and have taken on the responsibilities as a wife and mother. I create with the wonder of my youth and education. I have known misery and despair and bliss and orgasmic wonders. I have experienced the death of my loved ones and also the death of love.
I also have endured many things. I see the good and wonderful as well.
All these things are within me and help me to travel this journey of life. We own nothing. Everything is temporary and a gift.
Yet this waiting on biopsy of a possible Melanoma skin cancer is a bit overwhelming.
It started out as a new mole on my left upper arm about five years ago. The shape of a dark brown heart. I thought to myself, affirming,
“I don’t remember this?”
Yet it has changed over the last few months. And so, I took responsibility as I am turning 65 this May to take care of myself and address myself squarely as well as my mortality.
It could be nothing, or it could be a minor surgery to remove it, or it could be much more dangerous.
My doctor dermatologist said.
“Yes, it is a pretty heart shape.” and I replied.
“A kiss from the devil.”
We both laughed.