“life that is beautiful and surprising and deep”

Amber is fossilized tree resin that has been appreciated for its color and natural beauty since Neolithic times

At a time when chaos is weaving a strange web. The realm of contrary ways bangs and crashes along. So many people dying and the lack of human compassion to simply stop the spread of COVID19 by just wearing a piece of material, or manufactured paper material, on their faces… is this not insane?

I go back to Kurt Vonnegut’s Slaughter-House-Five. … a theme that carries my life.

Between life and death are the moments.

“We are in the amber of the moment.” I am placed now reflecting moments during my senior years. Reflecting on the history of life that is filled with adventure. The smell of wild sage, riding the punk slam pits like riding waves at Huntington beach. I found riding waves much more terrifying than the pit! I feel as Billy Pilgrim did.

Years ago, I had an extraterrestrial experience. The UFO opened and a little grey guy dressed in royalty focused a beam of light upon my brain. I was filled with images, symbols, words I could not read or understand. It all came at me so fast! I thought I would implode

“Stop,” I said.

I did not understand the term downloading then. Like most myths and symbols, they reveal knowledge slowly. “Because this moment simply is. Have you ever seen bugs trapped in amber?”

I have learned to let life, my life, reveal long and slowly as moments to me.

“There are no telegrams on Tralfamadore. But you are right: each clump of symbols is a brief, urgent message-describing a situation, a scene. We Tralfamdorians read them all at once, not one after the other. There isn’t any particular relationship between all the messages, except that the author has chosen them carefully, so that, when seen all at once, they produce an image of life that is beautiful and surprising and deep. There is no beginning, no middle, no end, no suspense, no moral, no causes, no effects. What we love in our books are the depths of many marvelous moments seen all at one time.”

In all the books I have read and research I have done this above quote explains my personal UFO experience. Even depth psychology, Jungian psychology, ufology, esoteric studies, religious studies, film noir, punk rock music or jazz did not explain this experience to me. This full moon in Sagittarius is an amber moment for me.