Now I try to feel it as often as I can. When I get the hard-on for life. Flowers blooming, a song, my friends all help to amplify this experience.
I love this picture my son took of me. It is that time when I united the male and female within me. Symbolized by my two tattoos of Dionysian Hollyhocks.
I was reading that Indian Gurus’ overall goal is to unite all religions of the world. They also talk about united male female gods.
This is very simplistic I know. Also, the religions of the world have tended to be very male oriented. As most cultures or all cultures for the last two thousand years.
As a religious studies major in college, BA and Masters, I always had a thorn in my side.
With in-depth Jungian Psychology I have found the answers to many of my concerns. For me it was uniting the masculine and feminine within myself, or in Jungian terms the “anima and animus.“
I have a “hard-on” for life. Even within the diversity of life right now. I can’t help getting one when I see flowers in bloom and the whole of nature in a type of rapture. Welcome Spring or Autumn as my favorite times of the year. It is not the male kind of hard-on but it something inside. Not sexual but very blissful-orgasmic at times
It is ironical for me to have these feelings while also having to balance it out with my compassion for what we are all going through right now historically. I know it is a dark time, a real challenge for all of us in different ways.
I am mindful of those suffering. They are not alone when we think upon them. I have love in my home that comforts me.
Also, the human Ego is my friend.
I think that males and females have a different relationship with their Egos.
I feel males need to let their Egos float downstream a little.
I think females should ride their Egos.
It is good to be admired as it is to admire another.
I like the feeling of appreciation as well as when I feel the feelings of the appreciation for others.
As a female riding her Ego it is like riding in a canoe.
Sometimes the river is smooth and glossy.
Other times it is a prissy fucking nightmare.
Yet we need to express our realities to the world…
as I am doing here.
My self especially as contrasted with another self or the world.