The heart

2. Redefinition

Turn an annoyance into a reminder of privilege. For example, a messy home that was just cleaned yesterday can be seen as a visible sign of how privileged you are to have kids at home who make messes, instead of an annoyance. Or maybe you get annoyed by a spouse who squeezes the toothpaste tube in the middle or leaves the toilet seat up. Next time you get annoyed, catch yourself and see it as a reminder of how privileged you are to have them in your life. Anything that annoys you can be the trigger for gratitude and love. This is true alchemy, the turning of the base into the precious.


Kindle Direct Publishing release of Flipside # 54 The Ten-Year Anniversary Issue available soon !

March 14 Sun conjunct Mercury Retrograde at 24º Pisces……

Some may say it is not a good time to release a project like this one. Yet as a Gemini it is the right time to let this jewel plunge into the enormous global WWW. What a better way to celebrate 30 years of the WWW. Amazingly free anarchistic voices stirred around the world from the past inspiring a new generation. One can just see all the punk documentaries popping up. Los Angeles Flipside Fanzine # 54 Ten Year Anniversary Issue was doing it as an original source of punk rock. The original punk rock HUB of the late 70s, 80s and 90s. With plenty of published issues to substantiate it. As they say… the proof is in the pudding.



The wilderness of the Wild West and The Gospel of Thomas

The Hired Hand (1971) directed by Peter Fonda starring himself, Warren Oates, Verna Bloom.

We’ve been watching a lot of westerns these days. I said to my man that we should start a western film blog. Last night I viewed a film called The Hired Hand. The soundtrack and images are unique for a western. The thesis of this film is multi-layered and caught me off guard with a richness that seems to project the direction and uniqueness of Peter Fonda. Not to underestimate writer Alan Sharp, but what caught me off guard was a quote read aloud by Warren Oates while he and Peter Fonda’s characters were resting in a lovely open wild scene. He reads,

“His disciples said to him, “When will the kingdom come?” Jesus said, “It will not come by, waiting for it. It will not be a matter of saying ‘here’ it is or ‘there it is.’ Rather, the kingdom’ of the father is spread out upon the earth, and ‘men do not see it,” (113)

Today I awoke wondering about the quote. It was not a quote from the new testament. I know I  studied that particular quote before. Yet I asked myself where? Then I did a little research and found its house. Instantly I was surprised that this quote was even used. It was a quote from the Gospel of Thomas. Included in The Nag Hammadi Library.  (On my bookshelves collecting dust) This collection was not included in the bible for historical absurd reasons.  The books were not discovered until 1940. Although scripture historians knew about the books before hand.  So, having a cowboy from the late 1890s read from the Gospel of Thomas seemed unusual. Not historically accurate but was this on purpose or is there something more to the story.

The film is about three characters and their love for each other.  The woman played by Verna Bloom is a hearty farmer who is alone raising her young daughter. She is more male like and seems less like a female. Even using her hired men for sex. Paying them for work on the farm and for pleasure in her bed. This all came about due to her husband leaving her. She took on the responsibilities of the farm like a man. Owning the land with true action.  She was very successful.

Another  quote from the Gospel of Thomas that follows the one mentioned above is not included in this film, if only indirectly.

“Simon Peter said ‘to them, “Let Mary leave us, for women are not worthy of life,”

Jesus said, “I myself shall lead her’ in order to make her male, so that ‘she too may become a living spirit resembling ‘you males. For every woman who will make herself male will enter the kingdom of heaven. “ (114)

This is the last quote included in the Gospel of Thomas and fits like a perfect jewel within the thesis of this bright film from the 1970s. A generational call to the world too. Of equality for women in all ways of life from the land towards the heavens. One can take this on to a good Depth Psychology/Jungian study,  yet I will leave it here. Peter Fonda is an amazing  fellow! 

Queen, Mother, Wise Woman and Lover: Rediscovering the Archetypes of the Mature Feminine


My insight on International Women’s Day 2019

A Matter of Choice.

I am not a feminist or a professional business woman. I took the more traditional path as a wife and mother. I am also an entrepreneur.  I find I can balance the male and female within myself.  Jungian Psychology calls this balancing the Anima and Animus.  I am creatively involved in projects that have meaning to me and beyond myself or the extramundane.  I am naturally a supportive person that likes home, intimate relationships and small pubs. My goals are based on love not profits. I am learning to be very happy to cross the bridge of financial stability and independence.

I dedicate this day to the character Maggie Paul played by Marsha Mason from the film Cinderella Liberty (1973).

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Maggie Paul curtains for rainy days in our bathroom.

Papa gave mama a crystal in computer room for inspiration…

The outdoor crystal that merges with nature and the Sun.

Doing the laundry is never dull work in my home.

Back at you Mr . Trump…

Adult Toilet Paper humor for the absurd at heart…. remember to be more than an asshole !!

“satire is strong irony or sarcasm—”in satire, irony is militant”[2]—but parody, burlesque, exaggeration,[3] juxtaposition, comparison, analogy, and double entendre are all frequently used in satirical speech and writing. ”


The Terrible Death

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My Punkalullaby

“The praying mantis lives her story of life, death, and rebirth. For me she is an image or symbol of the divine in all things. I watch the praying mantis in my garden and have taken her image as my logo. She is an amazing little creature, and I relate to her connection to nature. We are both wild and part of this strange world. She is a part of my mythology as I am part of hers.”

My Punkalullaby

Continuity of life,
Cyclical movement
Innocence, experience, wisdom
Back to the punk rock years
Memories, friendships, and bands.
Freedom and searching
Anarchy and hope
That wild punk chick
Has merged again with me.
Spirituality, nature, and chaos
Praying mantis in my garden
On my arm
In my book,
The wild praying mantis has merged with me,
Even in the tattoo artist’s garden.

~ Hudley’s Poem

My Punkalullaby: The Seminary Of Praying Mantis (Punk Fanzine Memoir Book 1) Kindle Edition

Three little…

I have three books
before me
The Three Little Pigs,
The Three Little Kittens,
The Three Bears.
How many times did I read the books
to my two sons as babies?

I may come out with a little book
called The Three Little Praying Mantis.

a goal I reached 1000 posts… nice..

End Trafficking of Native Americans Act of 2018

Pass it on..


To, The Honorable Senator Sen. Catherine Cortez Masto

204 Russell Senate Office Building, United States Senate, Washington, DC 20510

RE: S. 3280: End Trafficking of Native Americans Act of 2018

Dear Senator Catherine Cortez Masto,

As a citizen of the United States, I think that the United States and the Federal Government need to support the unique rights of Native American Women who have been, and are being, abducted, part of human trafficking, in the sex trade underground. I am a believer in the rights of these women. Your bill “to increase intergovernmental coordination to identify and combat human trafficking within Indian lands and of Indians” is well grounded in this issue and I support bill S. 3280: End Trafficking of Native Americans Act of 2018.

Researching the subject, I have found it a very complex one. It includes a history of Federal Government and Native American Indian Treaties. It also includes an intense and problematic look at Native American Indian reservations, tribal leaders and their form of government and police force, in contrast or contrary to, a look at the federal government, state government and their police force.

It seems because of this complexity that the victims, Native American women, have found themselves in a vulnerable place. It seems the human traffickers know this and seem to prey on these women living within this complexity. I read on the website, The Human Trafficking Search Web site an article entitled Trafficking in Tribal Nations: the impact of sex trafficking on Native Americans posted by Liza Kane-Hartnett, that some of the problems stem from, “The proliferation of the fracking industry also contributed to a rise in sex trafficking of Native girls and women as “man camps” were established in remote areas of Minnesota, North Dakota, and South Dakota, creating a high-demand for sex in an environment rampant with drugs, alcohol, and limited supervision.”

Regardless to this there is a positive growing action by state and federal government to help these women. On the website, The Voice of America. I read an article entitled Lawmakers Propose New Ways to Help Native American Women. It states that the “Federal and state lawmakers have proposed or adopted a series of measures designed to address the problem of missing and slain Native American women and related issues, such as human trafficking, domestic violence and rape.”

I believe that the End Trafficking of Native Americans Act of 2018 is a promising way to    help Native American women by fighting for their rights and showing these women the proposed new ways to help them. A way of bringing the federal, state lawmakers and Native American tribal communities together to stop sex trafficking of Native girls and women. In the 2017 Trafficking in Persons Report – United States of America, “Advocates called for increased training of prosecutors and judges on mandatory restitution for victims of trafficking. Multiple federal agencies continue to engage in extensive capacity-building for law enforcement, judges, military personnel. pro Bono attorneys, and others to more effectively investigate and prosecute trafficking cases.”I support bill S. 3280: End Trafficking of Native Americans Act of 2018 and the many advocacy groups supporting the great need to stop sex trafficking of Native girls and women.


Masto, Catherine Cortez. Sponsor. Junior Senator for Nevada. Bill, S. 3280: End Trafficking of

Native Americans Act of 2018 Refere

Associated Press. Lawmakers Propose New Ways to Help Native American Women. Voice Of

America. September 11, 2018 ;36(9):52-64. Accessed October 5, 2018.

Hartnett, Liza Kane. Human trafficking in Tribal Nations: the impact of sex trafficking on Native

Americans. Human Trafficking Search. Published 2018. Accessed October 3, 2018.

United States Senate Committee On Indian Affairs. Bill S.3280 End Trafficking of Native

Americans Act of 2018. United States Senate Committee On Indian Affairs. Published 07/26/2018 S.3280. Accessed October 3, 2018.

United States Department of State. 2017 Trafficking in Persons Report – United States of

America. United Nations High Commissioner for Refugees (UNHCR). Published 27 June 2017. Accessed October 3, 2018

ya! For the world…

Jaded Poem

A little around the edges
A spinning energy in my middle
Older and wiser and stronger
Less inspired by adolescent rantings!

So I want to write and read aloud
I want to travel and ponder
the meaning of life.