The newsprint / ink thing?

“I’d rather be a sprat than a mackerel, you can slip through the net
It’s set, it also takes one to catch one.”

It is imperative then that a woman brings up the masculine side of her nature, that she learns to love a thing, or an idea, even, though this is primarily a man’s prerogative, and even though her attitude toward the thing or idea will never be his. For however completely she has succeeded in this task, she will care more about the application of the idea than for the idea itself, though she will still call it the idea. So it is, her love finds its way through the thing to the human being back of the thing.

Harding, Esther. The Way of All Women (C. G. Jung Foundation Books Series) (p. 99). Shambhala. Kindle Edition.

I am reading a book, The Astrology of Midlife and Aging by Erin Sullivan. I ordered years ago on my Kindle but forgot yet recently got a paperback copy. It is helping me make this on the “limn,” means edge, experience of turning 65 much better.

All the trash I have to throw away from those companies that what to entrap me in some medicare deals makes me feel like a target for sure.

Thinking of things I love… but might have to let go of.

I am making changes in my life. Seeing what is valuable in life. What to keep and what to let go of. Finding out, it is normal to daydream of the past and remember how things were but also to do a few more modern things as well. Yet my need to be on the cutting edge is about gone from my need or guilt to hang on or somehow feel responsible. I will keep to what inspires me, makes me angry or affirms by position on things.

Funny I decided to order the LA Times paper to get that lovely feeling again of holding a paper and reading it again. I found out that in 5 days that I am allergic to the ink in the paper used.

Tight chest, hard time breathing and feeling drained, and I thought it was Covid-19 again or maybe the old rainy weather. That is ironic to me.

The newsprint / ink thing? I once was addicted to the smell of new ink on newsprint in fanzines and vinyl record covers and inserts. I now know those days are over. Funny how fate can make decisions for you.

I call for a mandatory ‘stop building bill.’

Topper and Hopalong Cassidy

CPUC Public Advisor’s Office, 505 Van Ness Avenue, San Francisco, CA 94102

SoCalGas GRC Application


I call for a mandatory ‘stop building bill.’

A Wake-Up call for the San Fernando Valley, West Hills California. To our politicians, Southern California Gas Company, Los Angeles Department of Water and Power and the California Energy Commission

I don’t think our California politicians, or corporate building contractors or big baron tycoons want us to have land.

They want it all to be too expensive to have a small piece of land where the earth is below you and the stars are above you. They have a goal to buy up all the land and force us into apartments.

Shame on our Governor for appointing this commission who have proven they have all lost their marbles.

I got my email message to pay our gas bill. I have lived in California most all my life, some 65 years. I know the bell curve for seasonal gas usage. That is fine by me. Yet today I noticed a double fee. I had to look twice to believe what I saw. I overlooked my yearly average, and this is just insane. It doubled in only one month.

Nothing has changed in our usage of gas. In fact, we got a new energy efficient heater last year and a new washer and dryer this year. Yes, again both are energy efficient.

We have lived in our home for close to 23 years. Our home is 65 years old and was built in 1958.

I called our Southern California Gas Company thinking we had a gas leak.

I finally got through to a nice representative and she told me that the California Energy Commission passed a bill that began January 1, 2023, to raise our fees. Now they want to do it again?

After a pandemic, I feel is still very observable, and during a major storm season here in California they do this to us. This seems insane.

I watch as the big houses are being built smooched next to each other right here in the San Fernando Valley during a drought, pandemic and now an economic recession.

Yes, many ugly apartments are going up and they do this to us. Apartments plugged into every space not leaving any place for our good Earth Mother to breathe.

We need to create and pass a mandatory ‘stop building bill.’ We need to conserve our precious earthly resources now. We can do this by, not building more but less. Taking the time to fix up and recycle old buildings and regenerating and protecting our great historical places. Not run them over with a large bulldozer.

We need to step back and take a look at where and why we are building. Is it for our community? Are we considering the environment or our precious wildlife? Will all these apartments and large homes put a real danger on our gas and water usage? I won’t go into how awful public transportation is here.

All these buildings have caused much more traffic while contributing to pollution and other negative players.

Other countries protect the land and consider the environment and the resources they have by not exploiting their communities.

Building contractors can save and regenerate old buildings and turn to creative conservation energy efficient means of protecting the environment. Yet they are now exploiting our environment for extreme profits, with the permission of our politicians and other bad players, by overbuilding and then raising our gas and water fees.

For example, at Vanowen Street and Canoga Ave in the San Fernando Valley there is a block where once was an open area where two Mexican Restaurants were. Across the street from where once stood Rocketdyne. A wonderful place for family and young people to gather.

Now there are apartments on that same square block. Ugly apartments create more traffic, more pollution and use up more water and gas. Apply that by many more apartments that have been built throughout the area. Not to forget to mention what is planned for the empty Rocketdyne campus.

Viewing an image of Rocketdyne today at a Car Repair Shop in Canoga Park I was amazed by the structure.

The view was showing the perspective where the viewer can see the Verdugo Mountain range in the background. At the time of the picture, 1950s, Rocketdyne is surrounded by farmlands and wild fields. Canoga Ave, Owensmouth and Victory Blvd. are only small two-lane streets.

Vanowen street parallels the buildings as a rough asphalt two lane highway. Rocketdyne looks like a large computer chip plugged into the surrounding farm and open wild land, including a large parking lot filled with cars.

Ironically and sadly today the same once futuristic rocket business is now an empty field where wildflowers and weeds are growing. I hope this will become a museum or open park in Rocketdyne’s memory.

The only things remaining on the Rocketdyne campus are a few old pepper and eucalyptus trees. It is now hopelessly surrounded by cars, apartments, and more ugly apartments. And yesterday I saw a homeless camp of many homeless people set up on Canoga Ave right across from the old Rocketdyne campus.

Once at Valley Circle and Reseda Blvd was a horse stable where I used to go riding in the wild hills above. Now in the last five years massive, large homes have been built there. No sense of the environment or any room for a garden or place for children to play. The natural environment was raped by putting in massive water, electric and gas eating monsters. No sense of the surrounding wildlife. It is very sad to see. All built during a drought, and pandemic when ironically conservation is shamelessly pushed upon those who have lived here responsibly for years. These big homes and apartments are built never-endingly while there are more homeless people in our communities. Something is desperately wrong here.

Who is giving these companies permits to build on the one hand while raising our water and gas fees on the other? Time for you to consider greed, and other bad players. Time for our politicians, Southern California Gas Company, Los Angeles Department of Water and Power and the California Energy Commission to see this for what it is. Are you part of the problem or do you really want to get down to the job to help us all and create a real answer to the problem?

I call for a mandatory ‘stop building bill.’ So, our politicians, Southern California Gas Company, Los Angeles Department of Water and Power and the California Energy Commission can take the time to really do something to help us all!

Not just doing the foulest and cruelest thing of all, which is to increase our water and gas fees when we are already finding life too expensive. Not to mention more people moving onto the streets because they cannot afford to rent or lease these ugly apartments and massive homes being built. This is not governance but irresponsible corruption, this is just downright embarrassing.

I have lived here 65 years and never has it been like this. It is unacceptable.

Why am I receiving this notice?
Southern California Gas Company (SoCalGas) and the California Public Utilities Commission (CPUC) would like to hear from you. You are invited to participate in a public forum, also called a Public Participation Hearing (PPH), about SoCalGas’ 2024 General Rate Case (GRC) application. At the public forum, you can make comments and raise concerns with the CPUC’s Administrative Law Judge (Judge) who is overseeing this rate increase request.

How will the public forums be held?
As part of the CPUC’s ongoing efforts to protect customers and community members, and provide the greatest access, these hearings will be held virtually. Your participation by providing your thoughts on SoCalGas’ request can help the CPUC make an informed decision.

You can also provide written public comments at any time during the proceeding at

Where and when will this/these Public Forum(s) be held?

March 6, 2023
2:00 p.m.
Virtual PPH
Phone Number: 800-857-1917
Passcode: 1767567#
March 15, 2023
6:00 p.m.
Virtual PPH
Phone Number: 800-857-1917
Passcode: 1767567#

SoCalGas’ March 6 and March 15, 2023, PPHs will be held virtually, meaning you can participate via internet or via phone using the access details above. Please note: If you need a language interpreter for these virtual hearings, please contact the CPUC’s Public Advisor’s Office using the contact information at the end of this notice at least five business days before the Public Forum. If you wish to make a public comment, you must participate by phone using the phone number above. After calling in and entering the passcode above, press *1, unmute your phone and record your name when prompted. You will be put into a queue in the order you dialed in.

Why is SoCalGas requesting this increase?
On May 16, 2022, SoCalGas filed its 2024 General Rate Case application (A.22-05-015) with the CPUC. The application, as updated in November 2022, requests authority to increase revenues for 2024-2027. SoCalGas is requesting to increase revenues by $738 million (20.2% increase over 2023 expected revenues) in 2024. This application also includes requested increases of $295 million (6.7%) in 2025, $261 million (5.6%) in 2026, and $379 million (7.7%) in 2027. The cumulative requested revenue increase is $4,740 million.

Every four years, SoCalGas is required to file a GRC application with the CPUC to set annual revenues. Annual revenues are the total amount of money a utility is allowed to collect through rates in a given year. The revenues requested in this application pay for the costs of owning and operating gas infrastructure. This application does not include the cost to purchase natural gas for SoCalGas customers and does not determine how revenues are assigned to customer groups. Those are evaluated and authorized in separate proceedings.

SoCalGas is requesting this increase to:

  • Continue to invest in its gas delivery system to enhance safety and reliability, and to manage risks that could impact its employees, customers, and/or system;
  • Invest in the gas system and technologies that advance clean energy for customers and the environment;
  • Continue to invest in the needs of customers by enabling diverse customer service capabilities, and to empower customers with information and tools to better manage their gas use;
  • Meet regulatory and compliance requirements driven by system safety and reliability and environmental compliance; and
  • Invest in efforts and programs to maintain a highly-trained, qualified, and diverse workforce.

If the CPUC approves this application, SoCalGas will implement new revenues in gas rates beginning on January 1, 2024. This will impact your monthly bill.

How could this affect my monthly gas bill?
If SoCalGas’ rate request is approved by the CPUC, the typical residential monthly bill using 36 therms per month would increase by approximately $8.28 or 13.2% per month in 2024, compared to estimated 2023. Individual customer bills may vary.

How does the rest of this process work?
The assigned Judge will consider proposals and evidence presented during the formal hearing process. The Judge will issue a proposed decision that may adopt SoCalGas’s application, modify it, or deny it. Any CPUC Commissioner may sponsor an alternate decision with a different outcome. The proposed decision, and any alternate decision(s), will be discussed and voted upon by the CPUC Commissioners at a public CPUC Voting Meeting.

Parties to the proceeding are currently reviewing SoCalGas’ application, including the Public Advocates Office. The Public Advocates Office is an independent consumer advocate within the CPUC that represents customers to obtain the lowest possible rate for service consistent with reliable and safe service levels. For more information, please call 1-415-703-1584, email, or visit

Your participation by providing your thoughts on SoCalGas’ request can help the CPUC make an informed decision.

Where can I get more information?
Contact SoCalGas
Mail: Jamie York, 8330 Century Park Court, CP31E, San Diego, CA 92123

A copy of the Application and any related documents may also be reviewed at

Contact CPUC
Please visit to submit a comment about this proceeding on the CPUC Docket Card. Here you can also view documents and other public comments related to this proceeding.

If you have questions about CPUC processes, you may contact the CPUC’s Public Advisor’s Office at:

  • Phone: 1-866-849-8390 (toll-free) or 1-415-703-2074
  • Email:
  • Mail: CPUC Public Advisor’s Office, 505 Van Ness Avenue, San Francisco, CA 94102

Please reference SoCalGas GRC Application A.22-05-015, in any communications you have with the CPUC regarding this matter.

I do, Miss Opossum

“Despite its appearance, the opossum is not related to the rat. In fact, the opossum is a marsupial, or “pouched” mammal, and is therefore related to other marsupials such as the kangaroo and the koala. Like kangaroos and koalas, infant opossums stay inside the mother’s pouch to nurse and develop. The opossum holds the distinction of being North Americas’ only marsupial.”

I hope I am found in my backyard garden under a lovely bush under the train of fence that is continuous for our clever wild animals. I have heard mama racoon back there purring with her young babes, I have watched as Miss Opossum emerged during the day with a coat of babes holding onto her.
I have watched Raven bite squirrel’s tail back on the fence and above birds adorn our backyard as hummingbirds and singing birds of every kind. Sometime Owl visits us. Hawk not so much anymore since our neighbors have cut down their old trees.
I hope I am found with ants in chaos over my body as I lie in the forfeitures of the earth as nature devours me in all ways possible.
I wrapped the wild animal in an old blanket we had outdoors that I had just washed. I placed Miss Opossum in a box with two yellow flowers and some blue flowered fragrant rosemary that the bees let me share and closed the recycled cardboard box.
I called the city and scheduled a time for pick up.
I hope I die in my backyard as Miss Opossum has. One of my favorite places in the world.
Under wild Dionysian Hollyhocks and bees humming around me as ants devour me.
Miss Opossum now is with her ancestors as her body is left behind.
I will miss you… I hope I will be missed too someday and appreciated as much as I do, Miss Opossum.

The Song of Sophia

Spring Dionysian Hollyhock from my garden

I lost the source of this song but as I was researching ancient tunes, I came across this one that I found interesting. I asked my niece who plays the violin if she might bring it to life. She lives in Seattle, Washington, and I live in California. I was going to university, and I wanted to present this in a presentation for a course I was taking. It is lovely and there is no claim of it.
I wish I had a copy of the music I found in an archive somewhere.
Yet I am reading a new book entitled Sophia Wisdom: Heart Wisdom by Annne Elizabeth Taylor and the book is inspiring my Sophia research from years ago and all my lost studies are coming together again and I am overcome. So, I made this little sequence.

Having a Bit of Fun Video A Happy Celebration of Time Shared on this weird planet…

“But how do you thank someone

Who has taken you from crayons to perfume?

It isn’t easy, but I’ll try

If you wanted the sky

I would write across the sky in letters

That would soar a thousand feet high

“To sir [s], with love”

That crazy Godzilla Punk Rock Night Club in Sun Valley is where I first saw GBH’s – Leather, Bristles, Studs and Acne spray painted on the wall.

I was then in search and found the vinyl and became a fanatic. 44 years now for me.

The album City Babys Revenge is one of the best sounds of punk rock! The band and songs are phenomenal. A forty-year celebration. I got the vinyl from Zed Records of Long Beach and played it loads. Yet seeing (Charged) GBH live was just the best experience I had as a young punk bird. They still thrill me as an old crone owl.

A hardy band that still tours around the world and I think they are indestructible. I really do!

A bit of history in front of Perkins Palace Pasadena mid 1980s.

Weeping Tears of Animus!

Raven in my front yard !

Tonight, wee hours of morn… I have been spending time awake with my animus!

A cup of coffee my ambrosia

kneading kitty on my lap

Happy happy

Thinking of male figures in my life

Who I admire and love!

Tonight I,

Acknowledge the male within me

You have not lost me

I embrace you

And let you cry

honey let it out

Weeping weeping wet tears

My night with animus!

Heal the headache, tears

Heartache and trauma.

The earth and sky

Jupiter and moon .

A Ghost Mantis holding a Thyrsus

In Greek religion, the staff was carried by the votaries of Dionysus. Euripides wrote that honey dripped from the thyrsos staves that the Bacchic maenads carried. The thyrsus was a sacred instrument at religious rituals and fêtes.

Light and shadow magic comes to visit at different times in life.

The wind was strong and pushed over my angel solar light. I just got home from shopping as I was looking up at Jupiter and the waxing moon.

I have been changing my routines a bit. I go shopping at dusk now and take my showers in the morning or in the middle of the day.

Taking morning walks is something different too.

When I saw the angel at an angle, I ran to fix it when I noticed the shadow playing on the wall behind it.

I said aloud, “A Ghost Mantis holding a Thyrsus.”

I will let the angel be.

I took a picture and played with the image on Adobe Photo Express.

A lack of human consciousness.

Taken from The Terrible Death Bubble Gum Comic A Flopside COmic!

“The Double does not exist only as an Ahrimanic shadow in individual men. There are members in this Doppelgänger sub-hierarchy of far greater power who act as the anti-spirits of peoples, nations, and races. And finally, there is the World Doppelgänger, the Anti-Spirit of Humanity, which plays its historic role as a servant of Lucifer in opposing the rightful evolution of human consciousness.”

Pg. 291 The Spear of Destiny, Trevor Ravenscroft

Friday night was time to go out and celebrate cause my man was winning a Chess tournament online. Youngest son, my man and I made three.

We went to the local Pub and then bar to celebrate properly.

We played darts at the Pub and had some healthy “Humulus lupulus” while listening to real records. The hiss and scratches and well listened to 45s made the music more enjoyable to me. Soul and ska and other melodies moved through the Pub and lots of hugs were shared.

At the next-door bar, we had some cocktails and enjoyed the slow ambiance of a well-loved bar. Nice and easy with an anime film on the screen. A break from the usual sports in most bars.

As we were finishing up, I looked over to see a man with a beard. Brown and rather friendly looking. We smiled in what I thought was a happy nod of enjoyment. He came up to us as my youngest son got up to take care of business. Then the man walked over to my man and me.

“Not just Jews were killed in WWII by the Nazis.”

We responded with a knowing agreement. Then he went on.

“My great grandfather saved a whole lot of people. Christians mostly and not many Jews.”

Seems this guy was reflecting upon his grandfather and WWII.

“You liberals think it was only Jews. You who voted for Biden and Kamala Harris!”

We then got a little confused and I said,

“How do you know who we voted for?”

Then he addressed me directly,

“Who did you vote for?”

“None of your business!”

We batted that back and forth a few moments.

Then came the flip into a world of conspiracies and insanity when he looked at me and addressed me singularly.

“You liberal voting people think only the Jews were killed in concentration camps. But you are the real Nazis.”

“How do you go from talking about WWII and then accuse me of being a Nazi?”

I then put my hand on the table with a whack. Telling him about how my dad got a purple heart as a captain pilot during WWII.

“I respect that you grandfather saved many lives during the war from concentration camps. Yes, there were all sorts of people who died there, and the people were also saved. Gypsies, Christians, Jewish people, I really don’t think it mattered who you were or your faith. Hitler killed anyone opposed to his belief system of inhumanness.”  

The man with the beard seemed filled with total contrary ideas that made no sense but only served to confuse and attack others who he found offensive. He is one of the ministers of chaos. Who spreads their hate talk.

It was a really sad moment of the evening, and when he told me he did not give a fuck about Iranian women’s demands for freedom I turned my back to him and walked away with hands up.

Youngest son confused him by saying,

“I didn’t vote for Biden.” (Just to see the bearded mans confused expression of an unexpected answer.) And added,

“Thanks for the story.”

Nothing that going to Denny’s didn’t wash away mighty fast…

At Denny’s youngest son was laughing and said,

“I was staring at the tiles in the bathroom and then I walked out, and you were talking to this guy. It was a weird thing to walk into….”

He really enjoyed the people we met last night between the pub and the bar.

These chaos ministers are a part of


They are out there,

and it is something to be aware of,

Even at the local bar.

“Alister Crowley adopted different identities when the mood struck him-and, like Trump, did his best to keep his name in the newspapers-and chaos magick asserts that one’s identity is malleable, that one should “reinvent’ oneself often, play different roles. We should pretend to be someone else, to envision a “magical self” possessing all the qualities that we desire, something that some New Thought advocates also suggest . Chaos magick also promotes the idea of using “shock tactics” saying something “outrageous” in order to “enhance personal power,” something that, as with much else about chaos magick, seems to come to Trump naturally.”

Pg. 76-77, Dark Star Rising, Gary Lachman

Does George Santos ring a bell? He is an manifestation of this  “Crazy Wisdom” of “Chaos magic!”

Seems it is what it is.

In a bar in the San Fernando Valley California to the House of Representatives

bewildering our beloved District of Columbia,

these dark spirits or anti-humans are hanging around,

spreading their chaos, chanting….

“I am the spirit that negates.

And rightly so, for all that comes to be

Deserves to perish wretchedly;

‘Twere better nothing would begin.

Thus everything that your terms, sin,

Destruction, evil represent—

That is my proper element.”

― Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, Faust – Part One

Epeisodion One: Larry Lash One Who Caused Considerable Trouble

In a matter of speaking Epeisodion One of the three narratives of Los Angeles Flipside Fanzine the Narrative Documentary / Film is a long dream of mine which has now come to it’s fruition. Created during the the end of the Covid-19 pandemic.

I had all that I needed to be creative in my cave.

I turned to Zoom, my cell phone and many means of programs to complete this. Which is the longest of the three. Larry Lash is a prodigious storyteller and as my mentor, original staff creation person of Flipside Fanzine, his interview in the first Epeisodion holds humongous satisfaction in my following the narrative through to its completion.

I have transcribed copies and digital copies of all three interviews. Epeisodion Two and three are very clean. Yet in Larry’s case Zoom did not synchronize our interview.

It took me a long time and a lot of figuring out to get it as good as I was capable. I separated our two interviews. I separated Larry and myself, so I had to edit us together again in two different programs. It was a very frustrating process, but I learned how to use all the tools of a film editor. The Flipside Fanzine way.

I think it was Michael Moore who said.

“To start a documentary, one starts with the tools and materials you have close around you.”