Poets are shameless

A poem a day… or a season…

If I feel physically as if the top of my head were taken off I know that is poetry.

~Emily Dickinson

Poets are shameless with their experiences: they exploit them.

~Friedrich Nietzsche

‘Therefore’ is a word the poet must not know.

~Andre Gide

Here is something as if “my head were taken off.” Working and “exploiting” Jazz is a wonderful way of feeling good about life. “Therefore” poems really capture feelings of being alive. Or as my sister “shamelessly” said once, “Is-ing.” That is what poetry captures.  

Here is my little project.


Whiskey: the black kitty girl.

Nacho Man: The orange cat.

Mikey: The kitty of the garden.

Bees: On Football bush. (HUM HUM HUM)

The back garden: From the Cornell’s address.

Raven was heard too.

And the rest of my poem speaks for

The day or a season.

Speak Truth to Power

This gave further impetus to the feminist revolt which, if not understood and coped with at its cultural root, could destroy Western society as a similar movement destroyed Roman civilization. The problem is now made more acute by the biological revolution which could, if pushed to its ultimate potential, alter the human race beyond recognition, or lead to its virtual destruction, while still giving the impression that scientific thought can fully comprehend and master that which generated it—Life.

de Riencourt, Amaury. Woman and Power in History . Honeyglen Publishing Limited. Kindle Edition.

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So, I celebrate this nice synchronicity as words become alive and memories shine.


As for stories Dad was the best at keeping us kids interested. He had the gift and I guess he learned this from his mother. Who he said left poems on the refrigerator door just for him. Later she had her poems published in the weekly Santa Monica newspaper back in the late 40s and early 1950s.

It was my mom who asked me to never stop writing and always supported my endeavors.

I even fought and wrestled with the Flipside Fanzine crew to get a Poetry Page in Los Angeles Flipside Fanzine. Pooch continued the poetry page after I left.

Flipside Fanzine Issues 57 Fall 1988

I love to write and especially love to write poetry. It is a time when magic happens. As human beings we naturally engage with memories, with the cosmos, and our feelings. Also, with those large uncontrollable metaphors like our professors tell us.

I was going through my notes and work and found this chapbook of poetry. I was surprised to see it was completed on the day September 17, 2018.

I will be talking this weekend. September 17, 2022. Telling stories with others. It feels great too to join in this narrative of speakers. At a cool pub. I can not think of a better place to talk. My youngest son told me this,

“Mom I just feel so comfortable in pubs, I dot know what it is but is just feels so good. I can just relax and have a pint. Listen to music and have fun.”

We could be talking about the pubs in the stories from Lord of The Rings to the history of William Blake’s’ family where the pub was so important in their freedom to speak and sing when the Church of England suppressed their views.

To the characters who linger, who come and go and grow from such a pub. Or simply to those who want to relax and hear a few stories.

People, real people, value others not just their created documents. This is what punk rock is.

Punk Rock Historian and Professional Consultant

Pic by Hilda 1979

I am happy to see many podcasts, films and documentaries about punk rock coming out these days. Books too. It is overwhelming to me. I am approached by many due to my special experience as a punk rock journalist. Some treat me nicely and others are ruthless to get stuff from me.

Be it writing a fanzine, a book, or releasing a documentary film I have done it all myself. I have published fanzines, books, and records. I just completed two documentaries about Los Angeles Flipside Fanzine.

There is always a line to draw out of kindness.

A few years ago, I was approached by a lady who knew nothing about punk rock but wanted to do a documentary about some punk rock skate women. So, she hired a promotional person to gather information. I agreed to do a Zoom meeting with them.   

I soon saw that they wanted to pick my brain. Then when I asked them questions, they got nervous. I told them that I needed to stop sharing with them.

This promotional woman was being paid good money to gather information about punk rock.

I was just brain picking leads for their needs. I call that being compromised and exploited!

I told them if they are interested in a real narrative with a person with valuable experience, they can hire me as a consultant on the film or documentary.

When they got back to me it was by a short message. They could get the information they wanted through an archive. They did not want to have a lived experienced narrative helper. They wanted cold facts and information. Good for them.

There is a difference between behind the scene work or giving an interview to be used in a film or documentary. There is a line to be drawn there too. Or maybe be a source of information for a book; as for a professor in an academic study.

I’ve been used too much. My work stolen, people coming through a backdoor to get money from my hard work, and I am lied too.

I am done.

I came up with the idea of a Punk Rock Historian and Professional Consultant for hire. I don’t help unless it is for a fee. Kinda like a private eye for hire.

It is serious business and most people are cheep. Not me, no more buddy!

From my experience one has to be savvy about these things. To the highest degree.

Send me a message and we can talk project, documents and/or consultant fees.

Write a Letter

My letter to the Politicians is something I wrote up when politicians send me their many letters for gathering money for their campaigns. Meant to be a humorous antidote but also saying something important at the same time. I need money in running a small business. Isn’t that the same as campaigning for a cause?

I have sent out many of my letters. Sometimes a few times to the same politicians. I never got a response until today.

I started to write postcards for swing states. It is fun to join in and help spread the word and try and influence votes through opinion and with good intent.

I made up what I called my Strong Women Series on Postcards. One was of Stacy Abrams. Now she is running for Governor in Georgia. I thought she might need some of these postcards. So, I got in all together with a letter to send.

I went to my local Post Office where my P.O Box is located.

I mailed off my little package with glee to the Abrams campaign, yes with a monetary donation.

Then I went to check my P.O Box. I had a retrieve postcard for a package. I went back to wait in line for my unknown package.

Not a clue who, from Washington DC, would be sending me a first-class do not bend large envelope to Hudley.

So, it was a real happy moment that in a moments time that two of my favorite politicians would cross ways by way of letters.

Yes, I did send Joe one of my standard letters. Damn it he did respond. He did not ask for money either. Wow my heart is so happy!

Reminds me years ago when my oldest son was about 3. He painted a wonderful rainbow for me. So, I sent a copy of the painting to Bill Clinton with a political ideal letter too. Thoughts that I shared with him in high regard.

He also wrote me back with a very similar letter.

The only two presidents who wrote me back.

In my life I have written lots of letters to all kinds of people. It is always nice when I get a response. But most times I don’t.

New Flipside Fanzine Vimeo Out

To bring forth original staff to share their youthful rebellion!

Hudley Flipside Presents…

It is my goal to bring an originally real narrative of Los Angeles Flipside Fanzine. I think it is a great narrative creation story.

The Seminary of Praying Mantis Publishing Production

When Flipside Fanzine put out our first 10 Live videos, we never planned to have them viewed in a theater. The Videos sold were created as home bound entertainment for fans of a growing punk scene. We charged 20 bucks for them. We only excepted cash. Sent to our P. O. Box. I managed the mail orders and then put the cash in our bank account. It was then used for upcoming projects.

This is what I had in mind when doing these close to an hour, more or less, videos. I did my homework.

Vimeo is the best I found to show these narrative documentary films. It is not a live podcast. It is put together with foresight and narrative interview history and with what I have preserved. Creating a narrative using many different professional editing programs. Like Adobe Premier Pro, my iPhone, Zoom and other sources.

A lot of documentary experts recommend this as a good way to go for small business entrepreneurs like myself.

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